majorly grossed out

hey ppl I m back! (that is if there is stilll anybody who stil comes here after my long hiatus)

Well not working this week cos there is only expo fair n most of the perm staff will b down for that so part timers need not work unless they need ppl. But oh well osim has got to b the slackest job around cos most of the time I just stand around talking to my colleagues n using the massage chairs hahahaha but hey I sold lots of stuff ok. I earned $700 for working for 9 days yeah! super happy but I would only get my pay like end of feb cos they need to tabulate the commision n all.

So as u can see osim's schedule is quite unstable so I went for an interview for admin at far east organisation. I got thru but just waiting for the salary to b confirm. So tat means weekdays I wil b working at far east n weekends wil b working at osim. Tat is if i agree with the salary la. Sounds pretty hectic. But I need ka-chings badly soooooo......

Anw know y I m majorly grossed out? Omg cos i was reading up on cannibals on the net plus there were pictures n omg omg omg I was stunned. I haven even eaten my lunch before reading. Anw i have no appetite now. So lesson learnt: Dont attempt to read on cannibals before eating!

Oh in case u are wondering I have seriously moved on. I meant really seriously i have. This time I m so sure. So advertisement ppl! Cassandra is looking for a dude now!!!! So my friends quick intro me to ur friends!!!! hahahaha ok i m totally kidding alright. I m not so despo ok.

Btw!!!!!!!! CNY is approaching!!!!!!!! yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ang-pows!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But boo cos results day seems to b approaching too...

ukimono!!!!

Just wanted to make an announcement tat I m starting work as of today at osim. This week I m working at Bishan J8 atrium fair. Today was my first day. I didnt serve any customer cos no one wanted to buy ukimono. So the staff taught me just now about the products but I m stil unsure on wat to say to the customer. Ok no I know WAT are the stuff to say like the functions bla bla bla bla. It's just tat I got to learn to string al my points together such tat customers wil want to buy. So ps I just need 1 customer tmr I just need to practice!!!! I wil b working for the rest of this week except on wednesday n thursday.

look into my eyes n wat do u see?

She is pretty.
She is slim.
She is smart.
She is funny.
She is kind-hearted.
N... she has got something I have longed for.

Girls like her are perfect isnt it?
Wat m I? I m nothing.

~ I would do anything to b like her~

I m sick of this shit.

my mum is one of a kind

Omg my mum is mad. I told her bout tat guy n she keeps asking if I had replied him n telling me he is not bad looking n we could be friends n start from there. Wth wat if he turns out to be a serial rapist or something who impersonated tat guy's profile n tried to trick naive girls into meeting him! I know...I m exaggerating I m just saying wat if, just stating an example. Siao right my mum?!

It makes me go WTF hahaha

OMG This is hilarious shit! hahaha gosh I received a msg from my bro's ex-relief teacher on fb. Here it goes:

Hi Cassandra, or can I call you Cass?I'm ******* ( I censored his name). I have just returned from Australia, where I did my degree. I used to do relief teaching at Montfort during my uni school holidays. I taught Kenny.Any way, I saw the little introduction you gave about yourself on your profile page and find you an interesting person. Let's be friends. You can add me on msn if you want: *******@hotmail.com So have you graduated from SAJC? If u're in arts, you can talk to me if you need advice about career or courses, etc. Merry Christmas~*******

Tel me funny or not!

N it al started when I left an innocent msg on my bro's page.

I wrote: AH BOY!!!! I m suppose to teach you tuition later(?). Dont you dare sneak off.
N out of the blue this guy replied: I can help you with that. We can tutor him together :)

N den he sent the msg.

This is epic. Funny.

Oh anw, interview's postponed to 18. Wish me luck people.

I need my kachings

Well peeps, I got a fucking job interview tmr at 10 am n I m sooooo nervous now!!!!!! I do hope I get through because the moo-lahs are gd. There are a few ppl I know over there so I do hope I really get through. You choose the days u wanna work plus it's 8 bucks per hour plus commission n guess wat? Public holidays are 16 bucks per hour!!! Some of you would have already guessed wat job it is. Yes, its OSIM!!!!!!! HUANG YAPING will be my collegue now! lol if I get through la. Bless me.

never knew I would b like this...

Well, not exactly in the best of mood now. I needed a place to pen down al my frustrations. Been feeling pretty down since tat day. I thought I numbed myself already so tat I m immune when I face such situation but it seems tat no, I was stil affected. Since tat day, I have been cooping myself at home. I didnt wanna go out. But no matter wat I do, I just kept tinking of it.

Gosh, I tink I sound stupid. It actually......hurts.

They say u feel happier n u forget unhappy stuff when u drink alcohol. I thought I would b but when I saw what I saw, I became more awake den ever. The problem is stil there. oh how I wish there is a permanent solution to my problem.

It seems tat I stil cannot escape from that fact.

baby lets count down

thx people for the surprise last friday during the bbq for the september babies=) Well, basically they blindfolded me so tat we can play 'games', splashed water at me, smashed cake at my face hahaha thx for the card n macaroons=) N a big big thank you to the class girls for making me feel so happy tat night especially ur special present to me: A FULL BODY WAXING SESSION!!!! hahaha I m gonna b hairless soon!!!! muhahaha=)

Current state of mind

Menstrually Frustrated.
Statistic-ally Tormented.
Physically Knocked out.
Emotionally Bombarded.

I wanna quantum tunnel out of this universe. Let's calculate the probability using Hypothesis testing. And before I jet off, I m gonna destroy all the amides/amines/nitrogen compound on earth and also bid farewell to aggregate demand and supply where I will be the only one in control of all the imports and exports.

Dont bother reading, you probably wont even understand tat junk.

Saw this somewhere...

"Sometimes you’re afraid to become a couple because you’re afraid of losing what you already have with that person. But life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don’t be a person who has to look back and wonder what they could have had. No one waits forever."

long time no see....

My blog is so so so dead. N wow amazingly ppl stil come here. Hello there! I m so bored. Better get back to studying. Cya.

N I m craving for anything chocolate. Yes, the food n you-know-who.

I need some sleep.

I m damn (times 10 to the power of infinity) tired but I cant slp!!!! Did math til now. The minute I close my eyes, all I could tink was how little time I have left to the A's n the state of screwed-ness I m in. Shit. Better go catch some slp before xingyi comes later n mug. She might b staying over which we wil just mug, drown our sorrows in coffee n slapping each other to keep ourselves awake.

aaaarrrrrgggggghhhhhhh!!!!!

fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got the worst pimple outbreak I have ever ever gotten!!!! 10 pimples!!! red and big some more!!!! I seldom have red pimples!!!! no!!!!!

A battle

Officially I feel emotionally fucked up. I shall drive al this emotional burden to studying. Study n stop tinking bout it. I feel vulnerable. It's like C controls how I feel. How can this be? I hate to be like this. Its so hard. How? How? How? My inner demons are killing me. I tink afteral its just so hard to accept the cold hard truth. Slapped across my face. A hit to my already weary soul. I m tired...

sheng ri kuai le!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELISSA LIM JIE!!!! =)
haha I m spamming everywhere. It's 12 already over at australia. Have fun!!!!

wait-er

I m just gonna sit here n just wait n wait n wait til something happens. Hopefully it does happen. So in the meantime, I wil just wait n wait n wait...

Exploding

how? how? how? I feel so confuse. I dont dare to say it out yet I wan u to know it but I m also afraid. I feel scared. It's not as easy as 1 2 3. It's more of quantum tunneling. Very little chance. Get it? No u wont. It's so complex. More complex den complex number. Imagine tat.

SLEEPY

hello there. Here I am typing as the rest of my classmates are having gp lessons. ok, I skipped it as I didnt bring my worksheets. Besides, her lessons doesnt really help. Hopefully she doesnt decide to suddenly bring the class up to the library instead of in the classroom or I will b screwed by her. Nah, I m not tat lucky. Intending to embark on physics in 5 min=) crapped up some lame excuse tat I got to go to the hospital for checkup or something n wil b back later in the afternoon for the gp test. Boo. Life sucks. I mean at the moment.

I have a sudden craving for oreo cheesecake. damn. Innocent looking thing stacked with lots of fats inside.

It is so cold in the library tat it makes me wanna sleep.

fun fun fun

Wow haven had such fun in awhile. Away from my books n al the stress. Went drinking with my friends yesterday. We chatted n I got tipsy over 1 GLASS of peach margarita n started laughing n talking bout certain 'stuff' hahahaha It was fun chatting with them ESPECIALLY guang ming!!! haha afterwards we went for prata. Got home around 3am. I like to chill with my friends n just sit n talk bout our lives=)

N den slapped! Back to reality again. Mugfest. Sch starts tmr, n I dont feel like gg.

Stupid blogger error

I just posted the previous entry. Y is it the date of 29 July? Stupid.

I feel...

The only book I study is Facebook. Damn.

Haven been feeling too gd recently. Sick. Emo. Upset. Stressed. N my class has the most amount of ppl who are out of love recently. We are all emoing together.

It seems like all of us are cracking under the tremendous stress of prelims. A level's is in another 3 months. I feel damn unprepared.

Malay food stall!!!!

As of now, I have already decided wat I wanna eat in sch tmr! Food from the Malay stall!!!! White rice with lots of curry plus kang kong plus beansprout plus curry veg! yum yum yum...

I M BACK!

I know I know... I have abandoned my blog for a week. Just dont really feel like there is anything worth blogging about. I have been quite busy lately mainly with sch work. Yaping knows best tat I m busy because according to her I didnt call her for a week. haha this is so not me cos I would always ring her up like once in 2 days? lol

oh well I really wanna go UK to study. I wanna live n breath the air there for awhile. But I also know tat it is not easy to let go of everything here n just walk off but I really wanna b independent too. Aiya so stress... Actually I dont mind gg to a local Uni (provided I can get in) as long as there are exchange programmes to go UK or mayb after studying in Singapore I can go to UK for further studies? I just know tat in my life I have got to at least stay in UK for a awhile n I m not talking about going on holidays. Probably 2-3months? I really really wanna experience the culture there.

N I kinda decided on wat I wanna study in the future. I changed my mind recently from wanting to study applied math to engineering. Dont really know which engineering course I wan yet thou but I see myself doing engineering in the future. I have always been fascinated by buildings. Let's hope I get what I wan.

time is slipping fast away

My juniors always amazes me whenever I see them. It kinda feels wierd to see them all grown up. They never fail to make me feel tat time passes by so quickly n I m getting older. They were only sec 1 when I was in sec 4 n now it's their graduating year. Oh man I wanna b forever 15, the time when I was the happiest and the most carefree. Next year onwards, I m gonna step into another phase of my life. In the decade tat is to come, I see myself studying and graduating from uni, getting a job, getting married n have kids=).

VALERIE XIE XIN FANG

OMG Y ARENT U PICKING UP UR HP?!?! It's pissing me so badly I swear I m gonna go sch n kill u tmr!! Y get a hp if u are always not answering it?! I miss called u like 15 times? I need ur confirmation be4 I can book harry potter online n I really really want to sleep now!!!!!!!!!! If u dont cal by 9.45pm, I m not including u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!