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screwed up chem, phy was ok i guess... gg to get it back later...

sigh... i feel so tired... nv felt this tired be4. JC life really sucks. Thinking back I still prefer sec sch days where u can get gd results without studying much. I wanna go back. I wan more free time. I wan to b like last time where i look forward to gg sch everyday instead of finding the slightest reason to skip.

I guess it's like this. When we were stil in sec sch, we always wish to graduate to either go into poly or jc cos we wan more freedom, to b more independent. N yet when we enter poly/jc, we just have so much more responsiblities. Gone r the days where teachers wil care so much bout u, giving u remedials/supplementary classes. In poly/jc, u r treated like an adult, u r in charge of ur own learning.

This is something tat is new to me, this new form of responsibilities as an adult, it's scary.I m stil trying to cope with it. I feel lost, lost in this pile of shitty books. I feel tat the real cass is hidden somewhere among these tall book buildings. I m trying to find her, but she is running far away from me. I wanna b my real self again. I wanna b happy everyday i wake up, i wanna love to study again, thirsty for more knowledge n not b who i m now. Cass WHERE R U?!