~i just dont get it~

I m scared...very very scared.i wanna cry n cry n just cry... i wan a shoulder to just cry on... i dont know y i m reacting this way... i feel incomplete, there is a part of me which is gone...wat is it??? I dont understand myself... i wanna confide in someone. But no one gets it. I wanna b left alone but i dont wan to at the same time... wat is the fucking thing which is causing me to feel this way? I wan an answer!!!