Cold war with my mum: day 2

I m so fucking angry. I cant stand seeing her around at the moment. It just makes me more angry n freaking dont understand wth she is tinking. I dont understand y she has to b so strict with me!!!!! I M FUCKING 19 THIS YEAR!!!!! Y cant I do things tat a normal 19 year old can do? Y m I so restricted?!!!!!!!!!! She tinks I m throwing a tantrum just because she doesnt allow me to stay over at my friend's house. IT's TOTALLY NOT ABOUT TAT! I freaking dont understand y she doesnt allow me to do things tat all my other friends are allowed to do. It's not like I m doing anything bad. I dont understand y she doesnt allow me to do things I wan!!!!!!!! WTF is wrong with her? If she doesnt restrict n CONTROL me so much, do u tink I would lie to her everytime I wanna go out with somebody after sch or go clubbing or stayovers?! Do u tink I enjoying lying?! Y cant u understand I freaking got my own social circle? It's not like I m smoking, indulging in alcohols, taking drugs or having sex?! I just wanna go out with my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wat's so wrong with tat?! Y cant she b like other parents? Is it because tat I m in jc so she has the impression tat I m stil a kid?! I m fucking not! I dont even understand y she doesnt allow me to stayover at my best friend's house. Even if it's just 2 fucking streets away n she freaking know where is tat. I dont understand y I have to ask permission like a primary sch kid everytime I wanna go somewhere or do something. TO HELL WITH UR " I DONT LIKE MY KID TO STAYOVER AT OTHER PLACES" principle! FUCK IT MAN! I feel tat I have obedied u for too long tat now it's time I do things the way I wan it to b! oh yes I m gonna rebel against you. Fuck ur stupid excuse tat " Mummy only have 1 daughter, I wont allow u to go overseas with ur friends after a levels. What if something happens to u?" ya "wat if's". So gd la. Keep me at home. So tat I dont go out because WHAT IF I GET KNOCK DOWN BY A CAR! u see. There's gonna b a risk in whatever I do. So y dont u just lock me up at home! I had enough of ur lame excuses. I just wanna enjoy gg on holidays with my close friends using the money tat I have earned n have some fun after a level's. N it's not like there is gg to b a few of us. I freaking also know tat it is dangerous to go on holidays in a small group so I wil make sure tat there wil b a big group gg be4 I agree. I have my own mind n I believe tat at an age of 19 I KNOW HOW TO DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN WAT'S RIGHT N WRONG! Cant u understand tat the way u treat a secondary sch kid is not gg to work on a 19 year old? I dont wanna b so protected by u al the time. I wanna b independent too. Y cant u just let me b n START TREATING ME LIKE A YOUNG ADULT?!